It never ceases to amaze me how easy it is for me to abandon my writing to do something else — surf the social media sites, work on a bathroom remodel, write a presentation for an upcoming class, watch the news. I have a wonderful new regimen for writing and it was working great, until I interrupted it with finishing my presentation for the class I am teaching in the fall. Granted, the presentation needed to be finished, but during MY WRITING TIME set aside specifically for ME???????
I think I get so caught up in necessities and expectations that I sacrifice the one thing that means the most to me — my writing time. So how is it that I can so easily give up my writing time to use for other purposes. Well, if I knew that, I could stop it (couldn’t I?). It makes me wonder whether writing is all that important to me after all. How can I so easily sacrifice it to the banality of the day-to-day.
The reality of my writing life is that maybe, just maybe, I still don’t look at it as a career. So often we are raised to believe that any artistic expression is a hobby, not a career. As a hobby, it becomes secondary to the responsibilities of the day-to-day routine. So I think I still have that in my mind, at the heart of the matter. My writing, while I love it, is still a hobby to me and not a career. So, how do I change that notion? How do I reprogram my belief system to accommodate writing as a my career? After all, I was a professional technical writer for most of my adult life. Why is writing a novel any different? Hmmm. I will have to ponder on that some.
I’ve been working on my novel this week. Yay!! It feels really great to be writing and getting so much done. However, it can be very frustrating writing 2 or 3 plot lines that must somehow coincide and be resolved at the end of the story. This frustration likely stems from me fighting with myself. But it is still very real.
I start writing about the main characters and forget that I have a couple of subplots going that are important to the story. Then I feel like I am back-tracking when I focus on writing the subplots. I know they are necessary to further the story and create a more rich novel. But I feel like I will never move forward. This feeling is ridiculous, of course, because each word written furthers the storyline. Nevertheless, I feel that way.
So, I thought about writing each plot line separately, then weaving them together. Not wanting to spend too much time on it if it is a crazy idea, I still thought it might be worth a try. Well, let me tell you, as soon as I started that tack, I knew I shouldn’t. There’s way too much to remember and trying to weave them together after the fact would be even more frustrating. These plot lines happen concurrently, so writing them separately is foolish.
I will just have to realize that, as frustrating as it might be, I am not losing ground when I return to a chapter or scene and add in subplot storyline. Either that, or I will have to learn to write the plotlines concurrently. Truth is, this experience of writing my first novel is a major learning experience. And, overall, I am having so much fun doing it.