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We watch, we learn,
We create our lives
Moment by moment,
Day by day,
Event by event.
Experience tells us
How to interpret our world
Love tells us
How to accept ourselves

-AH, 01.04.2015

© 2015, Andrea Hunter

Character Building

I have been working on this novel for years now and, every time I hit boulder in the road, I realize I have missed something.  Likely the reason for hitting the boulder.  This most recent boulder revealed that my MC has not been defined well enough to cause her to be passionate about this quest of hers.  I ask myself why she would be so willing, eager, to go along with the journey she must follow and I have discovered that there is no answer — in the book, that is.

So, now I have to figure out where to put this information and how to write it into the story.  Do I do a flashback or give her a present-day situation that expresses her interest and belief in the plot line?  After all, this is not exactly a normal plot line.  She is experiencing some situations that are somewhat paranormal.  Why would she believe in the paranormal?  Maybe I need to make a world where the paranormal is part of the normal?  Or maybe her world includes the paranormal?

While I grapple with yet another snag, I feel some excitement to the process.  After all, I am learning what will be needed on my next project.   And, for me, these questions indicate that I am on the right track.  I think that if I weren’t coming across these little discrepancies, the story would have no continuity.  As strange as that sounds on the surface, when looked at in depth, I am writing a plot line that fits my characters.  Thus it lets me know when those characters haven’t been as well-defined as they should be.

As a writer, we know our characters inside and out, backwards and forwards.  If we are smart, we have written their biographies.  And I did that for all the major characters.  The issue comes when we realize they are in the throes of the plot and we have forgotten to tell the audience how and why they are handling the given situation in a particular way.  For example, I know my MC is a determined and focused.  She is not easily deterred.  She also has “the sight” as her guide calls it. This means she understands and sees the world in a different way than most people.  But how does my audience know that?  So, I am thinking of adding in a dream sequence or a flashback to exhibit her unique perspective.  This should help the reader understand her later reactions to the plot turns.

Back to work…

-AH

Fear Factor

I read a lot of tweets and posts about the fears we writers have — blank pages, writer’s block, inner critics (aka monsters), lack of ideas, rejection, etc.  I think about these things and I think I fall more into the fear of finishing group.  I fear finishing my novel because I not only have the usual fears noted above, but I’m really not sure what to do after I finish it.  Editing and all being obvious, what do I do afterwards? Do I get an agent? Do I submit to publishers?  Do I self-publish (and that option opens up a whole new set of questions)?  What do I do?

Then there’s that question that looms in my mind…what if I am such a bad writer that I will never publish and the book will be a total embarrassment?  You know, like those poor young people on American Idol who can’t carry a tune, but get up there and mortify themselves because their family has always told them they sounded terrific.   Oh heavens, yet another fear to handle.

Fear is a great paralyzer, the root of much procrastination, especially as a writer.  It’s a wonder any one gets the words on a page, much less published.  The big FEAR is always standing in our way.  We all have general fears in life, it’s human nature.  But as writers, there are so many fears directly related to our craft that breaking free of them can be an insurmountable task.

How do we trudge on?  For me, it takes a lot of pushing, a lot of will power.  I push myself to get up early, to open the computer, to actually write.  I will myself to forget all the “what ifs” for the time I’m on the computer writing.  I will myself to just write and not think about the monster in my head screaming at me that I am not good enough.

In the end, I hope to be published and, more importantly, read by many.  I don’t need a bestseller, but it would be nice. Then there’s the other “what if” that I fear. What if I can’t get published and/or no one reads my book, will I continue to write? I suppose I’ll find out soon enough; but the longer it takes to finish, the longer I can live in my dream world of being published someday.  And there’s the catch.

Happy writing!!

-AH

Computer Creates Conundrum

I am so frustrated because my computer is almost dead after a Windows update during which my computer froze.  It has been nothing but trouble since then.  I finally realized there was no fix unless I reformat the hard drive and re-install the operating system – which I do not know how to do.

I won’t go into the gory details. Suffice it to say that my computer is now limping along. Trouble is, I have spent so much time trying to fix the darned thing that I haven’t written a single word in over a week! UGH!!! Thank goodness I backed up all my files! I decided to switch to a Mac, so now I have to navigate switching from Windows. Still less trouble than trying to refurbish my current computer.

This has created a conundrum, though, because now that I have ordered a new laptop, I am wondering how to proceed with my writing. Do I continue to write on my computer (in Word, cuz Scrivener won’t open anymore), or do I wait for the new one to arrive? Might it be prudent to write on paper, then transcribe when I get the new one up and running?  Writer’s cramp, here I come! I think I remember someone else who had this issue a while back – saw a post on Twitter.  In any case, I will be writing again tomorrow morning. For now, it’s Giants time! LOL!!

-AH

I Have A Book In A Bookstore

So happy for Laura! Makes me feel like my dream of same can come true too!! 🙂

Author Laura Diamond--Lucid Dreamer

When I first started writing, I never really believed I’d see a book with my name on it resting on a shelf in Barnes & Noble, but I fantasized about what it’d look like. It only took five years to see it come true, lol! And here it is, The Zodiac Collector, available at my local Barnes & Noble: IMG_1225 After the initial shock wore off of seeing my book under the “New Teen Fantasy and Adventure” section (I kind of stood staring for a while, then I snapped a few pictures, then I stared some more, then I took more pictures–God, I wonder what people thought!), I snatched the copies off the shelf and autographed them. IMG_1230 The store manager added The Zodiac Collector to the other autographed books they have at the Info Desk under Noteworthy Selections and invited me to schedule a book signing (which will likely be next year).

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Writing a First Novel is Painful!

I wrote a quick Facebook post this morning saying that I was not in the writing mode today and it’s torturous writing a novel. In fact, I am feeling pretty tortured the last couple of days. Trying to write a novel can sometimes be like like trying to pull out my hair one strand at a time. So very painful. Other times, when things are seemingly flowing smoothly, it’s very exhilarating.

Lately, I have been trying to get the MC, Branwen, to her destination, but I know I need some action and some strife intermixed with the plot line. I work on this and come up with some nice subplots that start to take good shape. All is well, right? Wrong!!

I wake up in the wee hours of the morning and start thinking about why Branwen would believe that a spirit would come to her and expect her, a single young woman, to change the world. Then I start worrying whether my scenery is well-defined enough to help readers understand where the characters are and what they are seeing. I used to think that writing dialogue was difficult. Not so. Having come from a technical background, I don’t often think about the finer details like lighting, or the color of the walls, or the shapes of windows. I think about the meat of the story rather than the potatoes.

So, I suppose I’m wondering if I can go back, after finishing the meat, and add the potatoes. Then, I realize, this is my novel and I can write it however I want, in whatever order I want.  I don’t think there’s a specific order in which to write a novel, is there? It’s pretty much up to the writer how s/he gets the work from beginning to end.

I think I’m just so frustrated with the amount time it is taking to work on this project and I feel like I should be so much further along — like done already!! I beat myself up for getting stuck and it’s difficult to stay motivated. And maybe, just maybe, now that I’ve gotten all that off my chest, I can go back and write more of this novel?

-AH